I remember one Christmas time …

I remember one Christmas time

I remember one Christmas time
it was the lead up to Christmas Day
I was at Batemans Bay
it was going to be a hot day
I went down to the local beach before breakfast
intent on a morning dip
I didn't notice her at first
lying on a towel high in the sloping sand

I came out of the sea fully refreshed
as I walked past her
she confronted me with a bubbling smile
then arrested me with words - I'm in heaven
I was momentarily taken aback
it is indeed an idyllic part of the coast
magnified by the brilliance of the clear morning
then the realization …

the sad realization …
you could say
all her Christmases had come at once
as I walked back home, I thought
she would probably have a hell of a Christmas Day …
a little different from my family celebration

that was several years ago
heaven knows where she is now

Richard Scutter

Quite a few people find Christmas time and of course Christmas Day a very lonely, depressing time. The unknown person referred to above was a sure candidate. The drugs that pervade and destroy the young come to mind.

This young girl, well I don’t know how life has panned out for her!

The Christmas Gift that is for everyone may still be unwrapped – https://mywordinyourear.com/2020/12/25/get-real-man-the-christmas-gift/

Christmas Greetings to all and enjoy your time with family and friends.

Human Life – Matthew Arnold

Human Life

What mortal, when he saw,
Life's voyage done, his heavenly Friend,
Could ever yet dare tell him fearlessly:
"I have kept uninfringed my nature's law ;
The inly-written chart thou gavest me,
To guide me, I have steer'd by to the end"?

Ah! let us make no claim,
On life's incognisable sea,
To too exact a steering of our way;
Let us not fret and fear to miss our aim,
If some fair coast have lured us to make stay,
Or some friend hail'd us to keep company.

Ay! we would each fain drive
At random, and not steer by rule.
Weakness! and worse, weakness bestow'd in vain
Winds from our side the unsuiting consort rive,
We rush by coasts where we had lief remain;
Man cannot, though he would, live chance's fool.

No! as the foaming swath
Of torn-up water, on the main,
Falls heavily away with long-drawn roar
On either side the black deep-furrow'd path
Cut by an onward-labouring vessel's prore,
And never touches the ship-side again;

Even so we leave behind,
As, charter'd by some unknown Powers
We stem across the sea of life by night
The joys which were not for our use design'd;--
The friends to whom we had no natural right,
The homes that were not destined to be ours.

Matthew Arnold (1822 – 1888)

When I first read this poem I was taken with the first stanza and thought about the words and interpreted the text according to my spiritual understanding of life. And gave my own personal meaning to the words inly written chart thou gavest me to be the purpose of my life given to me on the way I should live, in other words a spiritual connection made by the God within linked by Jesus. I must have been thinking about what a friend we have in Jesus. And it would be nice at the end of life to be able to have followed – I have steer’d by to the end.

But Matthew Arnold is articulating his mission in life defined by his gift as a writer. That inward pulse that he identifies as his purpose in life. The journey of life is likened to a ship ploughing through the sea. Life is incognisable; never knowing what we might experience. I remember those Beatle (John Lennon) words – Life is what happens to you when you are making other plans. The sea is quite a challenge depending on the weather.

An interesting word chosen for our journey we stem across the sea at night; implying becoming fruitful. Stem defined in the dictionary as – a  central part of something from which other parts can develop or grow or something that forms a support. So metaphoricaly it is all about finding out how we should blossom. Knowing our individual purpose and responding in order to be more than just a stem.

The last stanza emphasises ownership; in that life is not designed as a me-only event. It has a deeper and wider more purposeful intent. The mystery left unanswered.

As a side comment when John Lennon was asked as a child what he wanted to be he said one word happy. And I do believe that life was designed to be an enjoyable event. So whatever you do enjoy your day!

Matthew Arnold on Wikipedia – Matthew Arnold – Wikipedia

The Rainy Day – Henry Wadsworth Longfellow

The Rainy Day

The day is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
The vine still clings to the mouldering wall,
But in every gust the dead leaves fall,

And the day is dark and dreary.
My life is cold, and dark, and dreary;
It rains, and the wind is never weary;
My thoughts still cling to the mouldering Past,

But the hopes of youth fall thick in the blast,
And the days are dark and dreary.
Be still, sad heart, and cease repining;
Behind the clouds is the sun still shining;

Thy fate is the common fate of all,
Into each life some rain must fall,
Some days must be dark and dreary.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow (1807 - 1882)

To what extent does the weather influence your emotive state. If it is raining and you what to play golf you might feel a little disappointed. There are plenty of other things to do besides golf of course. But in this poem it looks like the person is stuck in that dreary non acceptance of weather state. Dark and dreary is repeated in quite a few lines mirroring this stuck in the mud state, if you excuse the analogy.

But it is not so much of wanting a game of golf. It looks like the person is stuck firmly in the past in the same way ivy has that annoying habit of clinging to brickwork. In our previous home we had to deal with it and from memory it was not easy. Forgetting the past may not be easy for some and I think as we age the past hits our memory face more often whether remembering the sunshine at the beach or being fixated on that annoying conglomerate of weeds that have said hello this springtime.

The last two stanzas turn philosophical, and everyone has regrets. Rain is beneficial to the garden. In every gust the dead leaves fall! So, get over it and get out there and enjoy the day. Perhaps time to have a glass of wine with your evening meal!

There are plenty of poetic aspects which I have not discussed apart from rhyming and repetition including alliteration, assonance, personification, and consonance – the sound or r in that repetitive line ‘the day is dark and cold and dreary’.

Henry Wadsworth Longfellow on Wikipedia

Tonight I can write the saddest lines – Pablo Neruda

Tonight I Can Write The Saddest Lines

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.
To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.

My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.

My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her void. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.

Love is so short, forgetting is so long.
Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

Pablo Neruda (1904 - 1973)

He was twenty when he wrote this poem. It was published in the year 1924. Clearly this is a poem about grief associated afer the breakup of a love affair very early in life. And early stages too in the grief process emphasised by the statement my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her. To not have the physical intimacy of the relationship in the first days of the breakup is shattered at night time. The night the time the loss is magnified – to hear the immense night, still more immense without her.

The intense pain of not having physical connection is overwhelming and this dominates the poem. I like the single line stanzas that allow the reader to spend time deliberating on the sad state of affairs. The monologue and the repetition give emphasis to his sad emotional state.

But there appears to me a searching question on what is love. Apart from the physical aspects on knowing her body and the sexual union in lines such as –

I no longer love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her.
I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her.

Maybe he is looking at other aspects of her that connect with deeper meaning. Attributes such as integrity, compassion, personal goals, philosophy … aspects that could form a common bond beyond the physical.

This is the probably a sad reflection on a first love. At least the first more meaningful love relationship for he authored the poem at the age of twenty, so hopefully over time he had more success. His ‘Memoirs’ detail his relationships with many women. Although he extolled the beauty of woman in his love poetry his treatment of women was sadly lacking. But of course the product of the time he lived. His love sonnets were very much a tribute to his third wife Matilde Urrudia.

The King and I – meeting notable people


Richard, Richard … where have you been
      I’ve been to the War Memorial to visit the King, and the Queen
Richard, Richard … what did you there
                 I told the King to respect his fair hair
                                         … for I think a hat should surely be seen

Context …

Sometimes there is a chance of coming in contact with notable people whether royalty, politicians, popstars or actors. Maybe for a fleeting moment of course. I did get the chance to see King Charles III and Queen Camilla when they made a one-day visit to Canberra last week. I took the above photograph when the royal couple came out of the Australian War Memorial and took time out to greet some of the well-wishers who had gathered for the occasion. He spoke to the fellow next to me before moving on.

King Charles seemed in a good mood he undoubtedly has a sense of humour. I think he is a bit philosophical at being in the role of King. Making the most of it I guess, not an enviable job.

The Pussycat was very kind to the Queen in trying to chase-off a mouse that had frequented the Palace. I was only trying to give the King some helpful advice to protect himself. The spring sunshine on the day was quite intense, a little different from England I might add.

Big Meadow – Kevin Hart

I came across this poem when reading the Australian Book Review and had immediate rapport. Which is not always the case when reading poems within periodicals.

Big Meadow

Someone has left the day wide open here
But no one ever comes to mow the grass.
A man stands out of earshot, just a flash

Of red above the green and lemon stalks,
And then the sunlight spirits him away.
He's come, like us, to spend an afternoon

With daisies, butterflies, bull thistle spikes,
And lose his body in forgotten grass.
No talk when wading through this inland sea,

No need to name the milkweed, Queen Anne's lace,
No need to speak of lilies springing out
Like tigers from the track we roughly make

and unmake as we wander through the day,
No need to call the thorny locust out
Or tempt it with a fingertip. No need.

Words without eyelids come and look around
From in our heads and from those songs we love,
As afternoon grows sweet: air, cloud, and sky,

And then all settle down to flourish here,
Where grasses, trees and rocks step out of time
And leave us free to live inside the sun

That whispers, 'Come, rest in my golden breath,'
And half-imagine that we all can stretch
Ourselves like this throughout the years to come.

Some bumblebees dance round the bergamot.
My son is hidden in the thick long grass:
Not even the circling crow can see him now.

Kevin Hart
(1954 -

When growing up as a child I spent much time walking and frequenting the local meadows. My father bought a corner section of a field to build a house. The rest of the field was used for cattle or growing wheat and even to this day remains the same. Taking our dog around the field for exercise was a regular activity. This is a poem that invokes that contentment of life feeling from within as I recall my childhood memories, including building a tree house in an adjoining oak and walking to the bottom of the field where there was a sloe tree.

The first line someone has left the day wide open invoked similar feeling when reading the opening words of Mrs Dalloway by Virginia Woolf. When Mrs Dalloway opens the French doors to a June summer morning in England and thought – what a morning – fresh, as if issued to children on a beach. And I have pleasant memories of being so alive on a June morning in Hampshire and being in harmony with the countryside.

The meadow is a wildflower meadow where no one comes to mow the grass. A man loses his body in forgotten grass implies the meadow has been in such a state for many years. The plants and flowers are named allowing readers familar with English countryside to picture the meadow in specific detail. But the man actually walking in the meadow is totally oblivious of such identities. He is absorbed in the beauty of being in the now as he walks through the grasses; being at one with nature. Words without eyelids come and look around suggest there is nothing hidden from sight in his attentive absorption. And to live inside the sun gives the impression of taking resident within the sun joining the gift of brightness and warmth apart from indicating a sunny day.

It is a nice romantic thought that these moments in our lives can last forever – we all can stretch / Ourselves like this throughout the years to come

The absorption is emphasised in the last two lines My son is hidden in the thick long grass: / Not even the circling crow can see him now. There is also a subtle suggestion of personal loss apart from my thought at being lost in nature. Perhaps readers should think about the circling crow and what this implies.

From Wikipedia …
Kevin John Hart  is an Anglo-Australian theologian, philosopher and poet. He is currently Jo Rae Wright University Distinguished Professor at Duke Divinity School. He was the Edwin B. Kyle Professor of Christian Studies and Chair of the Religious Studies Department at the University of Virginia.

Pablo Neruda – Love Sonnet XV11

Love Sonnet XV11

I do not love you as if you were salt,-rose or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off: 
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved, 
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.
I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries it itself the light of hidden flowers;  
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.
I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where, 
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride:
so I love you because I know no other way
than this: when I does not exist, nor you,   
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,   
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.

Pablo Neruda (1905 – 1963)
Translated by Stephen Tapscott

This is one of Pablo Neruda’s most famous love sonnets.

S1 … He captures a deep and profound form of love that transcends the surface-level comparisons typical of romantic poetry. Instead of likening love to common symbols of beauty and passion—roses, topaz, or fiery carnations— Neruda uses subtler, more introspective metaphors. He goes to the spiritual essence of a person – between the shadow and the soul.

If you like he finds commonality with his own internal spiritual understanding of self – his own philosophic adherence. The physical aspects are secondary, the spiritual is dominant

The love expressed is not grandiose or performative but intimate, and secretive. And as though words are not needed.

S2 … The imagery of the hidden, non-blooming plant suggests that love exists beneath the surface, silently growing and infusing the self with meaning. Neruda is modest in that he is only partially able to comprehend the love that is internal in his lover – lives darkly in his body, but nevertheless a deep bond.

S3 … I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where — emphasizes love as instinctive inherent characteristic. And a natural force that exists without needing justification or reason.

Neruda’s love is so profound that the boundaries between his lover dissolves. Leading to a union where they are inseparable— so close that your hand upon my chest is mine. But ownership of another person is not an appropriate interpretation.

The sonnet speaks of a love that is not possessive but one where two souls merge into one, becoming indistinguishable from one another. It beautifully explores the idea of love as a force that exists beyond the physical realm, delving into a shared existence. Stephen Tapscott highlights the fact that I and you are no more.

The underlying thought equates true love to the marriage of the mind evoking togetherness as intellectual and emotional compatibility between partners. This concept is famously captured in Shakespeare’s Sonnet 116, where Shakespeare speaks of love as something constant and unwavering, a union of minds rather than simply physical attraction or fleeting passion.

So true love between a couple can be seen as the marriage of two minds — a connection that transcends physicality and based on mutual respect, trust, and intellectual compatibility. In a broader sense, love also involves physical, as well as spiritual dimensions making it more than just a meeting of the minds.

A Dog Has Died – Pablo Neruda

A Dog Has Died

My dog has died.
I buried him in the garden
next to a rusted old machine.
Some day I'll join him right there,
but now he's gone with his shaggy coat,
his bad manners and his cold nose,
and I, the materialist, who never believed
in any promised heaven in the sky
for any human being,
I believe in a heaven I'll never enter.
Yes, I believe in a heaven for all dogdom
where my dog waits for my arrival
waving his fan-like tail in friendship.
Ai, I'll not speak of sadness here on earth,
of having lost a companion
who was never servile.
His friendship for me, like that of a porcupine
withholding its authority,
was the friendship of a star, aloof,
with no more intimacy than was called for,
with no exaggerations:
he never climbed all over my clothes
filling me full of his hair or his mange,
he never rubbed up against my knee
like other dogs obsessed with sex.
No, my dog used to gaze at me,
paying me the attention I need,
the attention required
to make a vain person like me understand
that, being a dog, he was wasting time,
but, with those eyes so much purer than mine,
he'd keep on gazing at me
with a look that reserved for me alone
all his sweet and shaggy life,
always near me, never troubling me,
and asking nothing.
Ai, how many times have I envied his tail
as we walked together on the shores of the sea
in the lonely winter of Isla Negra
where the wintering birds filled the sky
and my hairy dog was jumping about
full of the voltage of the sea's movement:
my wandering dog, sniffing away
with his golden tail held high,
face to face with the ocean's spray.
Joyful, joyful, joyful,
as only dogs know how to be happy
with only the autonomy
of their shameless spirit.
There are no good-byes for my dog who has died,
and we don't now and never did lie to each other.

So now he's gone and I buried him,
and that's all there is to it.

Pablo Neruda (1904 - 1973)

This is Neruda’s pet dog and the first thing to notice is that there is no naming of the dog other than dog.
The emphasis is on the fact that he is Dog.

S1 … A straightforward statement that the dog has died and been buried.

S2 … Neruda will have similar fate. He reflects on the attributes that are commonly associated with a dog. Looking at the negative side of dog. Although Neruda has no believe in heaven his dog will be there and waiting for him in Dog Heaven.

S3 … his dog was not a close dog … rather distant like a star … there was no intimacy of touch that is common with a dog as pet

S4 … it looks as though the Dog gazes at the pathetic creature that is Neruda … he is there out of duty but what a waste of dog time … never troubles his owner

S5 … and when Neruda takes dog for a walk along the coast at Isla Negro (at the cottage in Chile where Neruda lived), Neruda is jealous at the natural happy full of life spirit that Dog shows on the walk … and I love the line full of the voltage of the sea’s movement … perhaps Neruda, in contrast is depressed, the poem was written near the end of his life.

S6 … no goodbyes necessary, a honest relationship

S7 … In line with the first stanza the Dog is buried and gone and that’s the end. As though a full stop on grief. I think he loved his dog very much despite wallowing in self-pity and using such a degrading tone.

This is certainly a different poem than one usually associates with Neruda. Most people would associate Neruda with his famous love sonnets.